So if you actually read this, thank you so much.
I've been having a really hard time recently, especially with friends. I just lost my best friend not long ago. It has been so hard trying to let go of him.
As I type this I realize I still haven't let go of him. I haven't given this to God how I wanted to. I haven't been giving much of myself to God recently. And honestly I feel like a horrible person.
I know people make mistakes. But typing this out to publish doesn't seem to validate anything. It doesn't. I don't need to have an excuse. It is all my fault that I have not given myself to God, my Creator, as He deserves.
He deserves so much and I can't ever return what He has given me. WOW, guys, He gave up His Son for little me. I can NEVER return what He has done.
But that's what grace is. and I am so thankful for that. He is so good. So so good.
Have a Merry Christmas and some super happy Holidays!
